Lately I've been thinking a lot about life.
Just life in general and the whole meaning of it, ya know?
God's word says;
"Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments,for this is the duty of all mankind.For God will bring every deed into judgment,including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil." Ecclesiates 12:13
Now, this verse talks about "fearing" God, but the word "fear" in the Bible doesnt mean to be scared of, or to be afraid, it means to respect.
We were all made for the same purpose; to live for God and spread his word. Even I forget that sometimes though. We are all so selfish. Which isnt necessarily a bad thing, but its not a good thing either.
Ah, to be totally honest I've been selfish a lot lately. Like, I am so excited for my future with God, for me to just grow spiritually and getting to know Him better.
But then, I'm SO nervous and scared to grow up too.
I have so many what if's that run through my mind each day:
what if;
-i dont get my liscense soon
-my bestfriends (Danielle/Jacki) stops wanting to be friends someday
-the boy I want to fall inlove with after highschool doesnt want that too
-i make someone so mad they wanna beat me up
-my brother stevie never comes home
these are just the most common "what ifs," but trust me, there are a ton more.
And I know that these thoughts are in my head because well... I'm human, and I'm selfish and I dont put God first always.
The other day in youthgroup the discussion was about "what are your strings attached to?"
That question has been on my mind a lot lately.
What are my strings attached to?
At first, my response was God. GodGodGodGod. Thats what theyre attached to.
but really, He's not the only thing theyre attached to, and I'm just so happy I can realize that now and change and make sure that I really am living for Him, and not for myself.
That may take sacrifices and losts, even hard times and heart breaks.
But I'd rather have the strongest relationship I can have with God then just think I'm content with my selfish ways.
I dont know who I'm supposed to be with when I'm older, or who my friends will be. I don't know where I'll live or what college I'm going to; but I do know God will be first in my life, and my strings will be attached to Him and only Him.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6
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ps. sorry if this doesnt make sense! Just my random thoughts(:
