poem?

Whenever eleven:eleven comes around you're the thing I always wish for,

but since you're always so far away, and I know even if I beg you'd never stay,

I keep our memories buried deep underneath the scars that remind me of you every day.



You're like a ghost that will always want to haunt me,

you make sure to make your presence is known so I'll never be set free.


But now it's like we've switched roles,

coz while your out there playin' Capser the Friendly Ghost,

I'm out here worshipping the One that I know loves me most.

You're there worshipping your god,

aka having sex because you think your "inlove" and you like the feeling of her bod.

But I'm here worshipping my God,

the Creator of all, my Wonderwall.

See how our roles switch,

I used to be the one worshipping something thats not real just so that I could deal,

a something like you, something that could make me feel.

You would be the one always trying to tell me a Bible story,

always giving God all the glory.


But I was so wrong then, now the only way your "love" comes is when its rapped in a

glove.


All I can do is pray for you,

and hopefully you can finally stop acting like your two

and realize just because you two play with eachother,

doesnt mean that shes barbie and your ken.

"I believe I believe!"

its 946 right now, my first night after Encounter!
for all of you who don't know what that is, its a church event that lasts three nights.

it is.... indescribable. I swear, whenever i hear PJ talk, it like being in a totally different world. That man has changed my life so much and the funny thing is, i dont know who he is; and he doesnt know who i am.
He is a real soldier of Christ, Thankyou PJ.!

Anywhoo,
I was sitting in church tonight and PJ was talking all about things we keep in our heart of hearts, and he brought up how some people keep their boyfriends/girlfriends their before anyone because they are so insecure about themselves that they always need someone.
As im writing this its like the words are magically flowing above the keyboard, like I dont have to really think and write this right now, haha okay done with the random thought.

but as he was talking about that it got me to thinking about relationships and about boys and ive came to the conclusion to me that;
men who dont live for Christ, are just.... unnatractive.
And i dont mean ugly, because i know that there are a lot of good looking men out there who havent found Christ yet.
But, I dont think i'd ever like to have a relationship with someone who doesnt live for Him. I dont really know why i feel this way,
i'm just put off by that now, hahaha.


another topic.... one of my good friends was going to go to Encounter tonight and she ended up telling me at the end of the school day "I dont think i'm going to go to Encounter, it'll take up to much of my weekend."
I dont think i've ever been that sad for one of my friends before. Shes missing out big time.
I love all of you! :)