So, hmm. This topic has been on my heart awhile but I never knew what exactly to say until I went to church on a nice Sunday and God used Jeremy Morris to speak right to my heart.
Self image is extremely crucial for most people, whether they know that or not. People care about what they look like. They care about if their hair looks a certain way, if their clothes are what's in right now, and if they are up on the latest trends. A lot of you reading this might say to yourself "no way, I don't do that." But, do you have a feather in your hair? do you wear makeup? do you straighten or curl your hair? have you dyed your hair before?
Just even little things like that to change your appearance show that you care about what you look like.
I know, for me, when I change the way I look, it's because of the nagging insecurities inside of me that scream "YOUREUGLY" . I know when I put on makeup, I regret it the moment I leave home and people start to stare at me.
For me, being insecure about how I look has always been an issue. I've always compared myself to my older brothers. They have eyelashes that go on for miles. They have the perfect shade of brown for their eyes. They have naturally dark hair and they were blessed with perfect smiles and teeth that never needed braces.
I might compare myself to every other girl I see, and only see beauty in them.
Galations 6:4 says, "Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then sink yourself into that... Don't compare yourself with others."
That's the first thing I was doing wrong!
but, after so much comparing and over analyzing and doubt I just always come up with the same conclusions;
- i'm not good enough
- i'm disgusting
- i'm worthless
- i'm nothing
- i'm not pretty
- why them and not me
things like that, you know?
But on Sunday at church Jeremy said something that just really stuck to me. Everyone is created in God's image, in His design. He created us all the way we are for a specific purpose that only He knows. While I am so busy insulting myself I have never taken the time to realize that I'm really insulting God. I'm insulting him in so many ways.
I am a sheer image of God and the only thing I can say about myself is all of those harsh, over dramatic, stupid, insults? Every time I say something negative about myself I'm telling God that His image of me isn't good enough, that I don't like it and He didn't do a good enough job making me. WOAH. That sounds like I am doubting the God who can move mountains and make the sun stand still.
Romans 12:6 says, "We have different gifts based on the grace that was given to us. So if your gift is prophecy, use your gift in proportion to your faith"
Everyone is given a different grace, and everyone has a different calling in life so comparing yourself to someone else will get you nowhere in life except feeling like crap about yourself.
And as for being insecure,
1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love."
God doesn't give us the feeling of fear, or the ability to doubt, or the way we get insecure. God is perfect love, so if we are truly living for Him there is no reason to have these fears and these doubts and insecurties about yourself since he casts them out. We are so beautiful to God and sometimes that is really hard for me to grasp; I think it's really hard for a lot of us to grasp and fully understand how much He loves us and adores us and thinks we are beautiful. But, Ephesians 2:10 says
"For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." He took the time to make us, and to carve us the way He wants. He knows our hearts, our thoughts, our mind, and the way we look on the outisde. We will never be ugly to Him. We will forever be His number one prize, the apple of His eye. So wipe away those insecurities, those thoughts that make you doubt yourself. Get rid of those fears and just remember that God has made you the way you are for a reason. That He is the King of kings, and you are his prince or princess. That there is no doubt in the world that you are beyond beautiful, it's okay to love yourself. It's okay to show the world God's beautiful creation. Don't hide yourself in your insecurties! Flaunt what God has made of you!!
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